Friday, August 22, 2008

All the Van Damage you Need

I loved this guy back in the day. I am glad to see he may be back especially in a way that we can all laugh about. Go get'em J.C.V.D. It has subtitles and is a little rough but if you like the Van Damninater it will be totally worth it.

Just in case you were wondering If this dude is off the chain I have a few more examples of my boys skills back in the day.

But Wait there's more!

And More! Nice BONER! - Van Damn Tastic!

I knew he looked familiar

The River Denial and the Oars of Change

The hardest thing in life to do is change, especially when we all have property on the river, and trust me we all do. The answers to change are always as close as outside your door, but the majority of us would rather look out the window at the river, present company included. If your trying to get in shape, kick bad habits, start new careers, move to the next stage of life or putting the dishes in the dishwasher it takes a very concerted effort to break the barrier of change. Add, it always seems easier to go back to old way even though you know it's not better. I write and create ideas but I run away from it because my current pattern has nothing to do with those things. So I fight myself, get my kayak out and get on the river once again. I hate to think that I must wait for the flood to destroy my house before I can move away, when I can clearly see the storm coming. But I have always seemed to see the storm coming, I'm just dumb enough to think that if I board my place up enough the hurricane won't hit my house.

Change;To alter; to make different; to cause to pass from one state to another; as, to change the position, character, or appearance of a thing; to change the countenance.

The words are clear, but the definition so difficult. How is that possible, again the answer in the definition, the answer to all of your problems in 29 words. That definition will be my motto from now on. All the problems of the world could be answered in 29 words. Look at everything and apply that definition and the solution is present. If you observe the planet that we live on, you must acknowledge the fact that the real place we reside has been around for a very long time and it has survived through change, adaption and perseverance. The planet hurts now because it's inhabitants are so unwillingly to acknowledge those 29 word, that they will destroy the thing that gives it everything. But the planet will survive because it will change with or without us. And if you peer into your on personal microcosm ask yourself are you destroying your planet your soul because you cannot listen to those 29 words.

I speak to you, but really to me, you must grab those paddles, those Oars of Change and push, as hard as you can even when the current flows against you. Even as your arms burn and your mind tells you stop and give in dig deep. Push, don't give up, don't stop, keep paddling there is a way out. Change yourself and fight your way across the river there is another shore, it's there open your eyes, your heart and your soul to the possibilities hiding in the corners of your mind. Change is as easy as reading those 29 words if you want it. Grab your Oars and paddle your way across the river or continue to look out the window at your River of Denial.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


How long do you keep fighting the signs you see. I have been seeing them a lot lately but have been trying as hard as I can to ignore them. My career is volatile to say the least and really, just about every day something kicks me in the balls. I sleep bad because of it and am constantly waiting for a piano to fall out of the sky and crush me. So much so that I wear a helmet to work. I love my father he is my pa pa but at some point I must look at the obvious. I worry about profit loss, robbery's, raids, the city planning commission. This was not what I had hoped for in a career and to be frank I think at times it attacks my creative flow. I am to scared to break away from the money and thus continue down a path littered with road signs that say "Get the Hell off - NOW! - RIGHT HERE!" but I watch those signs in my rear view as I drive past. Everything I do in my current world is unrewarding, even if my businesses make money the next day the air conditioner goes down, or I am robbed or my Father is having a shitty day or blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Every time I don't think anything worse can happen it does. I got my father involved in a real estate deal a couple of years ago and now he is going to lose his investment because of the market. I was burglarized last Thursday I haven't even finished the repairs on my shop then this morning I get a call about how stupid I am for bringing the investment to him. And he's right. Why do I try to play a game I don't want to play and one I am particularly not a game I am particularly good at. No offense to my Papa but everything we get involved with together is a shit storm. Not his fault it is just the facts, all I can think of is are these signs. The answer is clear -- Yes. I'm just in denial and I don't want to see the truth. It is smacking me in the face every day though it seems. At some point I need to make a stand for myself and believe in myself. I need to have a plan with a timeline. I need to believe in a future without the added pressure of the things that I am involved with. I feel bad all the time about my job I am the bearer of bad news, and it is taking it's toll. Things have to change.

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Praise God

Thank You Jesus!

Monday, August 11, 2008